August 13, 2012
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I don't even know where to start.
Lets just do this bullet format...
-Sam and I saw the new "Bourne" movie yesterday. Blown away by the last chase scene. Amazing free running and editing. So glad we got to see it on a big screen. And the jokes about Samuel L. Jackson on the drive there? Priceless. A moment locked away in my heart.
-Mandie drama during movie previews with the ex. He's now using Tristan as a tool to get me back. I'd love to drop him off at the cruise ship on Wednesday with his girlfriend just to get him off the continental US and away from me for 10 days.
-Social media. I hate it and I love it. I just started posting on something and Matt responded to it. It was like a pathetic hug but I will take it.
-Mandie? leaving that alone for a couple of days. I know what I want to do to make it better. Good news it that Matt and Sam are okay again. And Sam okay'ed my new plan. Give me and them some time. The thing is that Sam and Matt are my only family. No parents, grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins....dead or haven't been speaking to us for 25 years. *note to self-stop and move on*
-got 6 hours of sleep last night! Herbal remedies are working and I'll go with it.
-Sam and I have a Sea World date tomorrow afternoon and evening. I may have to ditch him to go on one mild roller coaster-I need the scream therapy as I call it. But we will have a wonderful time. This week is Sam week. Yes, Matt moved in last year to help take are of me. And then continued working because its his busy time of the year. Sam was stuck with measuring over 25 pills a day, emptying bedpans, calling the ambulance when I fell-I owe the boy a good week because I love him and am so grateful.
-I did a bad, bad thing today. I bought a new camera. In my world with Matt Leopardditz extrodinare (as Sam and I call him).? My camera had died. I went and bought a very cheap camera that would do what I wanted it to do. I learned how to use my iphone on my own and easier than having the boys explain it to me. Matt has told me in the past that I can shoot. That I have "the eye", as he calls it. I even gave him photo credit (which doesn't matter to me) on a shot I did 4 years ago. It drives Sam crazy when I start shooting. I understand. (but if I picked up a guitar, he'd be okay with that) I'll take tonight and get familiar with it. Shoot a little tomorrow night when I can. And I swore Sam to secrecy that he wouldn't tell Matt I went and got a new camera.
-I did a good thing today. And I'm not patting myself on the back-I don't do this. Maybe I need to explain this because of feeling like the bad guy in the Mandie situation. My neighbor is really going through a bad time and I'm trying to be there for her. Every Monday I buy myself fresh flowers for the breakfast bar. $10 and I get my enjoyment out of them. This week I bought myself a beautiful arrangement that was on sale with a lovely vase-$9.00. My neighbor texted me about what was happening in her life today. I have a key to her house. Guess who will walk in to a beautiful sunflower arrangement when she walks in-she needed it more this week then I did. I've always taught my boys-do one good deed for someone every day.
And its even better if they don't know you did it for them.
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the Mandie situation has got to be terribly frustrating -- perhaps time will improve it ... sounds like good riddance to the ex -- does the GF live with him? seems kinda creepy that he's got a GF but is bugging you... random acts of kindness are good -- there's way too much nastiness in the human world ... enjoy your plans!
@fireandicecat - they are living together since they got out of my house in July. I'm just so done with all the negativity. I am a huge fan of RAK's and do them whenever possible.
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