June 15, 2012

• I normally don't post twice in one day.  But I keep trying to tell myself, remember what you said this morning. Nothing can be as bad as that day in the hospital.

  After the movie, I walked in on a fight.  Mandie was at it again.  Grabbed the grocery list and ran out of the house.  Came home with groceries and Andie was gone.  Screen door open and front door closed.  My front door doesn't latch and leaving the screen door open shows how pissed she is at Matt.  But my cats could get out.  Enough said.

  Carried in groceries and Matt came out into the kitchen.  I asked him very politely could he please close the door when they fight.

  He said, "you want the door closed?"

  And it was in my face.

   

   

  I went to the furthest point of the house to get away from him.  Sam was gone.  Sam is the bay, Matt and I are the 40 foot waves.  At this point, we were 2 tsunamis waiting to hit each other.  Three hours later we sort of met in the kitchen.  I asked could he understand I don't want the front row seat to their relationship.  He said they can't afford the house in August.  He said they will move in with her mom when Tristan is born and could he come work over here during the day.  Physically I nodded and said yes.

  Mental note-must get rocking chair and bed for Tristan to sleep in my room.

  He and Sam went to shoot pool.  Sam can talk to him.  I think they need time together.  Determined not to let this get me down.

  Especially when I saw a movie with Tom Cruise wearing assless chaps (from the back end) and Russell Brand and Alec Baldwin singing a love song to each other and kissing at the end.

  Groping for the good things right now.  The 5 day honeymoon is over.  Mandie has taken over the house again.

  Oh joy.

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