May 6, 2012

• So not good here.  Matt and Andie have not stopped fighting.  They break up and get back together and then I walk out this morning to find computer equipment all over my patio and him blowing off a 3K job in Tecate to deal with her.  She rescheduled my day with her until Wednesday. And I could care less if she did my hair-I'm only doing this for her so she doesn't get written up.  If it were not for the cats, I'd go stay in a hotel and take the money out of savings to pay for it.  He leaves for San Francisco until Sunday for a shoot.  He blows that one off for her and I kick him out of the house.  There is a 3rd person involved and that is their son which will be born in August.  I am so tired of having the front row seat to their relationship.  This isn't going to last with them.  I honestly don't know what to do.  And I'm suppose to carry on for Sam.  So tomorrow I will take a deep breath and take Sam to see "The Avengers".  I'm separating myself from his brother.  I love Matt with all my heart, but he made a big mistake.  I will be there for him, but I have to step back and let him fall to a point.  I really hope, for Tristan's sake, they can turn this around.  My neighborhood got crazy last night-blaming it on the moon-and I haven't slept since 3am.  Cat fights and neighborhood fights.  I just keep telling myself I've dealt with worse.  The thing that really pisses me off is that her mom and his dad don't even have a clue or want to even deal with what is going on with them-its all dumped in my lap.  I can hold it together until Tuesday when he gets his butt on the plane.  I'm not even thinking about Wednesday with her.  but I'll pull it together and smile and do it for him.

  Its what moms do.

  They don't tell you this shit in Lamaze class.

  • 7:13 pm
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