August 31, 2012

• In my world sometimes you just have to listen and then walk away into your closet and laugh your head off because you don’t know what else to do.

  I was emailing my neighbor to let her know what was going on and Sam walked out.  Grabbed 2 bottles of water from the fridge-now that doesn’t happen.  Walked over to me and told me his new girlfriend was here.  I asked him about her and if the family knew about her.  He said no.  I told him that since I wasn’t speaking to anyone, I’d keep my mouth shut.

  I’m sorry.  I heard the GF word and wanted to run for the hills.  For the next 6 months please don’t let me piss off anymore girlfriends.

  Now when your grown sons live with you, you are no longer mother and son.  You are roommates.  And I still don’t know how to do that.  I lived with my mom and then moved in with the ex.  

  I’m happy for Sam.  A new relationship is so special.  But after Mandie, I’m scared of screwing it up.  Like I said, I will admit to when I’m wrong.  But I just can’t deal with meeting a new person today that is important to Sam and I want it to work.  I look like shit.  

  Okay-focus on the good things.  I got dinner made by 10am before it got really hot.  Instead of the heat packs, I’m now using two bags of frozen peas on my back every hour for 20 minutes.  Already received one email from the ex but totally business related and I answered.  We actually have a breeze moving in through the front of the house.

  And I’m going to do the grown up thing-grab a bottle of water and go hide out in my bedroom until he takes her home.

  And pretend I’m a hermit.  Does that include pets?

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