still not feeling good.  That being said, Matt got home last night.  Haven’t seen his pictures yet.  But….ANDIE GOT UP THIS MORNING AND TRISTAN WAS DOING A HAPPY DANCE AND MATT GOT TO FEEL IT!

And that rocks my world.

Other thing that rocks my world?  ”Anchorman 2″.  They have been shopping the script for 2 years now.  Got on youtube and saw Ron Burgandy on Conan.  In between trips to the bathroom, could not stop laughing.  Told Matt.  He said, “and he played the yazz flute?”

Need to watch that movie again this week.

Bathroom calling

Feel like something you’d find in a litterbox.  Tried to make the rounds and read everyone.  Felt real good until Saturday night and then withdrawal hit.

I have 4 more weeks.

Matt left for a huge Red Bull shoot Sunday night and should be back tonight.  Since Saturday night, I’ve slept a total of 4 hours.  Tried Tylenol PM.  Nope.  Stretched.  Did yoga.  Nothing working.  Researched on the internet-going to try cherry juice. Two or three glasses before a very early bedtime.  Read about other foods that could help me sleep.  But I’m back on the “can I ever eat this again if I see it come up in the toilet or not?” list.  Oatmeal with milk-NO!

But Sam made my day yesterday.  I’m laying on the couch feeling horrible.  And the boy manages to shock the hell out of me-seriously.  My plan for Monday had been to go see “Hunger Games”.  I knew I just wasn’t up to driving.  I managed to track box office all weekend-3rd biggest opening.  He comes out to the livingroom where I’m crashed with 2 cats.  And he said…..

“want to go see “Hunger Games” today?”

Now I figured this movie would not appeal to him in the least.  Never even considered asking him to go.  He looked at me and said, “you can feel like crap on the couch or you can feel like crap in a movie theater.”

My boy knows me so well-that’s why we are movie buddies.

When “Dragon Tattoo” came out, he was the one I wanted to see it with.  With my obsession with screenplay adaptations, I wanted to see it with someone who hadn’t read the book, and could hold their own in a movie discussion with me.  He ended up seeing it twice.  So I was very excited he wanted to see it.  I was exhausted, spacy, and just feeling horrible.  He got me in the theater.

Now we had had a discussion on the way there.  I used to work in a Episcopalian private school library.  I kept debating would I have had the books in the library?  Back then (6 years ago), there was no Young Adult books like there are today.  I wanted the older kids to read but had to walk a very fine line.  This was when Harry Potter started exploding.  I did have those, but if you were 6th grade or younger, your parents had to let me know it was okay with them for you to check out.  ”Twilight”?  No way would I have done that.  But “Hunger Games” is tied into Scholastic Books and I used to do book fairs as fundraisers with them.  I also knew the backstory of how they got the PG-13 rating for the movie.

I was very impressed and so was Sam.  Its getting a little Oscar buzz, but it won’t happen.  That slot will go to the next Batman movie.

since I couldn’t sleep last night, I ended up re-reading the trilogy again.  There is a pretty disturbing part in the 3rd book that I think they can pull it off with the PG-13 rating.  There was no gratuitous violence in the movie.  Yes, its children killing children, but its an amazing movie.

Movie buddy and I are going to go see both Snow White movies.  He has agreed to go see the Abraham Lincoln movie with the vampires so he can tell me if I’ll get scared.

But on a serious note?  I’m all over the “Bully” movie.  Its now gone from an “R” rating to being non-rated so its open to everyone.  I think its in limited release 3/30.  And I will go into it another time about why I want to see it.

I threw up yesterday from 3:30pm to 3:30am.  The pets are obsessed with watching me and I don’t always manage to get the bathroom door shut.  But I’ve managed to keep food down today, eating a little every few hours.  Its 5:58pm and I think I’m going to drag myself off to bed.  If I could even get 5 hours from 7pm to 12am, I would be a new woman tomorrow.

And yes, if I could, I would dress like Effie Trinket in the “Hunger Games”.   And if Sam had dark facial hair, he would grow that totally cool beard the guy who runs the games has in the movie.

I live a very strange life at times.

Walked out this morning to find camera + equipment all over the breakfast bar.  Wish I could figure out how to upload pictures from my phone to the computer.

Asked Matt how much, dollar wise, was sitting there.

He said 25,000

This and that…the Internet Fairy must like me today, because it has worked most of the day-yay!  Its so nice being friends with food again.  I had really missed that.  Now I just need to get some weight back on so I don’t have a jeans malfunction if I forget to put on a belt.  I haven’t slept more than 4 hours the past two nights.  Hit the Tylenol PM bottle about 1am, but no luck.  So my plan today is use my stair step machine alot to wear myself out and eat a ton of food waiting for the food coma to hit.  But not sleeping is a thousand times better in my book than making that fast run down the hallway to my bathroom.

Am finally caught up with my laundry since the dryer got fixed.  Been dealing with that and doing other household stuff today.  Now where it gets interesting (and I find very funny), is that I’m wearing my Shape Up tennis shoes.  I’ve only had them a few months and am still getting used to walking in them.  I only wear them in the house and out to the trashcan.  Its like I have to keep balancing myself-I almost feel like I’m walking on the deck of a ship or something.  The boys find me trying to walk in them pretty darned funny.  And so do I.

So happy I’ve had internet today so I can follow the box office predictions for “Hunger Game”.  Several of the theaters were running it simultaneously at midnight last night in 12 theaters at once-the kind of theaters where they have 18 or 10 individual theaters.  And I could go on and on about it, but will spare you.  When I get to see it, you are free to skip that entry.  

Another movie I’m getting pretty excited about is “Mirror, Mirror”.  The clothes just look amazing and I giggle my way through the commercials everytime.

I’m going to take another stab at “Mad Men”.  Have seasons 1 and 2 on dvd.  Everyone says I will love it.  Only made it to episode 4 the first time I tried to watch it.  But I’m being told to keep sticking with it and I will love it.

Matt has been working so hard and so many hours this month.  Told me how much he will be getting paid for March-its truly obscene.  But, as he said, in his line of work there may be no work for a few months.  He will be doing a 3 day shoot for Red Bull.  If they are happy with his work on this project, they may put him under contract.  The problem with this shoot is that they want him to shoot 3 cameras positioned around a 6 story mega ramp with BMX riders and skateboarders…SIMULTANEOUSLY!  He’s having to rent equipment.  I asked if he was going to be renting extra arms to shoot 3 cameras at the same time.  He asked if I really wanted him to go into detail about how he will do this.  I said no thank you-I will just pretend you are wearing a wizard’s hat and practicing magic.  But I’m very excited to see the pictures.

Now I’m going to go eat tons and food and wish for a food coma to strike so I can get a nap.  Told the cats to keep their toes crossed for me that this will work.

And they said they would.

They know who buys the cat food around here.

Our internet is very hit or miss right now, so I have to type really fast.  Am definitely beginning to feel better!Had my first piece of chocolate in 2 weeks this afternoon.  No more nausea-and 14 pounds lighter-but sleeping is sort of like the internet, very hit or miss.  Did manage to sleep from 3 to 6am this morning.  Grateful for whatever sleep I can get.  Trying to get stuff caught up around the house.  Made it to the grocery store today and will be cooking dinner for the first time in a month tonight.  I’m trying to eat super healthy and got some Ensure at the store.  The boys are both super busy right now, so there is lots of coming and going.  I’m just staying at home with the four-leggeds and holding down the fort.  I don’t know how I’m going to track box office for “Hunger Games” this weekend with being internet challenged.  I just finished reading “Abraham Lincoln, Vampire Hunter”-Sam had it and wanted me to read it.  Really LOVED the book.  I don’t know if the screenplay adaptation will be as good.  Don’t know if its me or what, but I think Jessica Simpson has been pregnant for atleast 18 months.  Atleast I can still get entertainment news on tv.  But I’ve realized that I’m a Twitter-aholic.  I really miss it when I can’t get on-line.  Going to go check my Twitter before I lose the internet again.  I’m following the filming of “Lone Ranger” and am loving all the pictures Jerry Bruckheimer posts.

I’m trying here.  Went 17 hours yesterday with no throwing up. Started throwing up again this morning. Have lost 14 pounds.  Will have officially not taken any Prednisone for 4 weeks as of Thursday!  (Weakly happy dancing).  So sleepy today, can barely keep my eyes open.  Going to bed very soon.  Looking at it like beauty sleep-a lot of it.  

And I have a houseful.  A couple of Matt’s BMX team are staying here, and one of them has a nasty cold.

But I’m keeping optimistic!

Am reading “Abraham Lincoln, Vampire Slayer”. Bought it for Sam and am loving it.  Watched the movie trailer yesterday and got worried.  Tim Burton is producing it, but it looks kind of scary.  May need Sam to see it before I do it, so he can tell me if I can handle it.  After the first “Paranormal Activity”, I slept with all the  bedroom lights on for 3 months and my closet became a very scary place.

“21 Jump Street” was so darned amazingly funny and we loved every moment of it!  Got an email from my movie theater today. For 40.00 I can go see all the Marvel superhero movies on one day.  Me and a movie marathon?  I know I would be the only female in the movie theater-me and all the fan boys.  And I may just do it so I could say I did.

“The Walking Dead” season finale???  Matt walked in the door after doing a huge shoot for 4 days right after it started.  Told me I didn’t need to talk to him, he understood.  Still can’t believe he got paid what he did for the Red Bull shoot on Thursday.    Was totally amazing and finally we are off the darned farm.

I realize I’m probably not making any sense.

By the way, HAPPY “HUNGER GAMES” WEEK!  My plan is to be feeling better and go to see the 9am showing on Monday.

Oh, its so sad.  I could go on and on about Disney and the fallout that is “John Carter”-5 department heads are going to roll.  I may be sicker than a dog, but Sam checked the mail on Saturday and brought my Entertainment Weekly and Hollywood Reporter and I laughed-the boy knows his mom’s priority.  Last Hollywood fact-George Clooney got arrested outside the Sudan embassy.  Led him and his dad away in handcuffs.  The cops asked him his name, and (with a straight face) he said “Brad Pitt”.

I still laugh when I think about it.

As long as I can laugh, I can make it through this.

Okay, new plan for withdrawal.  Seems to hit every couple of weeks, but now I know last about 5 days.  When I’m feeling good, I get everything done around the house and stay on top of my laundry, the towels, rugs, that sort of thing.  Make sure there is a 12 pack of 7up in my closet and not for everyone’s use in the kitchen.  In other words, be prepared in advance for when I’m either horizontal on the couch or in the bathroom.  So I don’t get discouraged about the whole thing, on my calendars I am now marking each week how many weeks I have to go until I’m done-sort of a countdown.

Then I looked at the calendars-I have 2, a purse and a wall calendar-and noticed something that made me laugh.  On Sunday it says “17 weeks”, and on Thursday it says “6 weeks”.  Andie is 17 weeks pregnant and I have 6 weeks to go.  Her number will increase and mine will decrease each week.  And whoever else looks at the wall calendar is going to go “huh?”-it amused me.

Saw a little bit of an interview with one of the male castmembers from “Hunger Games” last night.  I started shouting, “he’s got one, I want one!”  Sam was in the kitchen as asked what I was talking about.  I said it was a mockingjay pin.  He just shook his head and walked down the hall.  Pretty sure we are going to see “21 Jump Street” tomorrow.  I am back in the movie saddle again and full of facts which are so dear to my heart.  ”World War Z” release date has been delayed from 12/2012 to 6/2013

Matt and Andie had a freak accident at the movies the other night.  He started to put his arm around her and accidently smacked her temple with his elbow. Three days later she is feeling so bad that she went to the doctor-she has a mild concussion!

Whoops-Sam wants to take Leon the cat in now for his “manscaping”.  Since I’m tired of wiping a cat’s butt, I gotta go…..

Yes, overall I’m healthy.  Except for the darned withdrawal.  I went off the Prednisone 2/22.  Complete withdrawal can take 8 to 10 weeks.  This is the third time I’ve tried to get off of it since December and this time I’m going to do it.  The digestion system starting not being happy late Thursday night.  Leon the cat finds it fascinating when I throw up-loves to sit on the bathroom counter and watch me.  Friday through Monday couldn’t keep anything down.  And, for a while, I was having to do the sit on the toilet with the trashcan in your lap kind of thing.  I’m also really dizzy and every so often the room will just start spinning all on its own.  My skin is breaking out in these dry red places.  All of this due to the withdrawal.  But I had Sam take me to the store today to get a few groceries.  Didn’t feel comfortable driving.  His question on the way out the front door?

Do you know where the bathroom is there just in case?

Told him yes-that was why I wanted to go to that particular store.  Got some Ensure, cooked chicken and turkey, veggies, fruit.  Need to go on total healthy food kick for a while.  I’ve lost more weight than I should and need to turn that around.  Matt asked me today how I was feeling.  I responded that I wasn’t in the mood to go to Disneyland, the movies, or even my beloved Target.  But I haven’t thrown up since 12pm yesterday!  I had some chicken, mashed potatoes, and fruit for lunch.  Ensure and a banana for breakfast.  I’m feeling optimistic once again.

There was a live feed of the red carpet for “The Hunger Games” premiere last night in Hollywood.  Exactly the kind of thing I love, but just not last night.  The past two days I have been able to do a few things around the house-am getting so darned behind on things.  I did manage to watch “The Walking Dead” and “GCB” Sunday night which was the highlight of the weekend-I seriously love those shows.

Matt and I were talking last week.  He had told me he wants to start traveling out of the country to do photoshoots.  One of the BMX guys stayed at the house last week.  He doesn’t have a home, just travels all over the world riding in demos and competitions.  He is 25 and has been to 75 countries so far.  Next stop for Brad is Estonia.  So I suggested to Matt he start applying for a passport just in case something came up which he sort of brushed off.

You know, as I mom I get great satisfaction being right from time to time.  Matt’s going to LA on Thursday to meet with a guy about doing a shoot in China. When he told me, he immediately said for me not to say it-and I didn’t.  Went running for the bathroom instead, but thought about it the whole time.

My dryer had died last week and finally got fixed Monday.  Needed a new motor.  Hoping to feel even better tomorrow for the laundry marathon that will thrill the cats-nothing like a clean pile of warm laundry for a short nap!

Why, why, why?

Hate this time change. Going to keep my bedroom clock on normal time for the next few weeks.  

Because I can and the cats won’t mind.

Health update.  I am very healthy!  They don’t know why my liver decided to stop working.  4 years ago I got really sick and my vision went south.  Nothing like seeing 4 front doors when there is only one.  I could go on and on.  Like when the doctor got in my face last July demanding to know how much unprotected sex I had been having?

Not going there.  Feel like crap right now, but am determined to get off this stupid medication for Tristin.  I have to be able to hold a baby in August.

Have been told by doctors that Prednisone withdrawal is like heroin withdrawal.  And I’ve withnessed that first hand.  With the ex.

At least I will be able to fit into my skinny jeans next week.  

I have gotten hooked on Animal Planet and the kittens.  Must force myself to step away from the TV.

My name is Lepordditz and I am a kittenaholic.

Certain things always make me smile and make me feel good when I see them.  No, I’m not talking about Brad Pitt.  I saw someone carrying a balloon bouquet across the grocery store parking lot and it just perked me up.  I may need to get myself one one of these days-just for the fun of it.

Speaking of Brad Pitt, I’m trying to find a new kitchen trash can.  What does one have to do with the other you may be asking?  (Or have I just gone off my rocker again.)  My trashcan is next to my cabinet-its one of the tall ones and normal sized.  A couple of months ago at Target, I saw a tall kitchen trashcan that was skinny.  It was perfect!  But I did one of those “I’ll wait a couple of weeks and then I’ll get it”.  Naturally, they didn’t have them anymore.  So I’ve started the Great Quest for the Perfect Kitchen Trashcan.  Don’t know how many stores I’ve hit.  Found one I could live with, but IT WAS $70!!  Then I went on-line.  I don’t shop on-line, but decided to make an exception.  Found the perfect trashcan.  It would be a joy to put stuff in it and empty it.  I really loved this thing.  The price?  $500!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  After I got over the initial shock that someone would actually pay that much for a trashcan, I decided that I would pay that much if Mr. Pitt would empty it for me on a daily basis.  So to heck with finding the perfect man, I just want the perfect trashcan for no more than $25.

Hey, a girl can dream. 

Was rereading my journal where I pour my heart out and write about everything.  I haven’t read it since I started keeping it at the end of August.  I don’t keep my journals once they are full.  But this one is a keeper.  I wrote about the joy of the first night of sleeping in my bed again instead of the hospital bed out in the livingroom.  How, if I had to use a bed pan, I was going to call it the royal chamber pot which cracked the boys up.  The first time the boys loaded me in the wheelchair to take me for a ride so I could just get out of the house after 3 months, and feeling the sun on my face again.  And the first time I was able to wash my hair-all by myself!  The frustration of having to deal with the ex-husband while going through everything.  Knowing I wouldn’t make it past 9/30 (according to the doctors), so I started cleaning out as much of the house as I could in my wheelchair so the boys wouldn’t have to deal with that.  A few of the wonderful hospice people who worked with me and I really do miss.  How the boys took me out to my favorite restaurant on 11/10 to celebrate me officially being released from hospice care.  I guess all this is coming up because I have a doctor appointment tomorrow.  Find out the results of the scan I had last month.  I’m really nervous about it.  Afraid she will say I have to go back in the hospital for all kinds of tests and proceedures.  Logically, I know that’s not going to happen.  I know I’m so much better.  Whenever I want to see a miracle, I look in the mirror.  Matt knows I’m very freaked out about it.  He is being super supportive right now.  Took me out for breakfast this morning.  I haven’t told Sam yet.  I’m really trying not to make a big deal out of it.  But I will be a much happier camper tomorrow after 10:30.

Okay, can’t deal with anymore serious stuff right now.

Finished all the “Hunger Games” books and loved them!  The author is very happy with the adaptation.  I love seeing the commercials on tv and the still photos on line, because I immediately recognize which part of the book they are from.  So excited for that movie!

Since my Target now has groceries, I do most of my grocery shopping there.  And you know what else they have?  A baby section!  I bought Tristan 2 gowns, 3 hats, and a blanket today.  All with dinosaurs on them-Matt has always loved dinosaurs since he was young.  I also found some yarn at the local craft store to start a blanket for Tristan-its kind of this chanielle stuff and super soft.  Also very lightweight because when he makes his appearance in August, it will definitely be on the warm side.  My hands are feeling so much better so I’m going to start crocheting tonight.

Finished season 2 of “Downton Abbey”-so darned good!  Going to watch “GCB” on the computer this afternoon-feel that is going to become one of my guilty pleasures.  I love children’s movies and Disneyland and blowing bubbles. But, at times, I swear like a sailor.  I also listen to inappropriate rap music and enjoy a high body count in a Quentin Tarantino movie.  But then, typical me, went to buy the GCB book last week.  Asked the lady if they had it.  She said, “what book?”  I leaned across the counter and whispered, “Good Christian Bitches”.  She started laughing at me….and said she’d call me this week when the book came in.

Oh, and the rock star flew in last night.  Five days in Rhode Island.  He got to see it snow and learn to talk with a New England accent.  I have heard some of the tales of his adventures, but also know they are being edited because there is just some stuff you don’t tell your mom.  But its good to have Sam home.  His Maine Coon cat, Leon, always takes a vow of silence whenever Sam takes off.  He is quite the conversationalist-except when Sam travels.  Was nice to hear him yelling at Sam this morning.

I think its time to make cupcakes….just because.